big question

I don't know how he makes it, but there are always a lot of questions
and there
aren't
any
answers.
There are moments,
in which I am the happiest person in the world
actually
there were.
and i was.
But there are such a moments,
in which I sorry about the moment I met him.

"It can't rain every day". 

It can't be WOAAH every day, I know this to perfection. 

I don't even expect something like this. 

It's not even close to this anymore. I had forgotten what it feels like.

Now I don't see him, I don't talk to him, I don't write to him 

and that's why I am forced to write here, obviously to myself.

after all these mistakes, after all, i was ready to open my eyes and to forgive,
but only in case he realizes all these mistakes and don't repeat them.
but no, he didn't grab the chance and give up, without just trying.
Of all my heart I'm sorry, I'm sorry for him.
I'm going to be okay in a few days, weeks, months,
but you..
you just lost me forever.